2023: A year of Rebirth & Introspection

By Wander with Jill

November 29^th, 2023

Today is my Birthday…

Birthdays have never been something i've ever been into. To me its just another day and usually I don't like to share it with others because I actually don't like the attention that comes with this day. But as I celebrate another year of life today I wanted to share some things that have been on my mind. I guess thats what birthdays do for me at least, they allow me to reflect on the year as I cycle into the next.

This year has been filled with many highs and many lows. Most people know me as being an avid traveler. This year Ive travelled less overall; But the places I have seen this year have been truly special for my soul.

Ive done some deep searching this year. Being an empath and doing shadow work is never an easy journey, but it's all so necessary in this thing I call life. One of my favorite trips this year was when I returned back to Ecuador in May of this past year. I traveled to the jungle of Ecuador on a spiritual journey to do ayahuasca once again. For those who may know my story already, Ayahuasca is a plant medicine that has truly changed my life for the better. Ive been working with this medicine since first sitting with it 2016 in Peru, and I only do when I am feeling called. The last time I sat with this medicine was in 2020 but this year I felt I needed to face and heal new parts of me once again. Every time I have sat with this medicine I have learned something new and shed more layers of me that need to be let go of it is tough work and I highly suggest it to anyone who wants to do serious healing work.

It took me a while to integrate and process the messages I received in my last experience with the medicine, but I am ready to share them now. The medicine works in mysterious ways and sometimes you don't fully understand and process it all for months. But when you do you finally have these Aha moments and suddenly it all makes sense.

The medicine broke me down to my core. The past few months have been eye opening on so many levels and extremely tough for me. I have been dealing with heartbreak, grief and fighting silent battles with myself and with others. Although it has been hard, I am so thankful to feel so supported by the ones closest to me. They have truly lifted me up the past few months as I navigated through all of this. I am always in a constant state of gratitude to live the life I live. To know I came out of a place of darkness once again with their help and guidance. I have felt so loved and supported it makes me want to cry.

I also learned I had to step up and make radical changes to move forward to make myself happy. Every day I am learning to be the best version of me possible. A person who is fully conscious, and makes healthier decisions for her life. I finally started taking care of myself more by going to the gym, doing yoga, meditating, going to the spa, being out in nature, eating healthier, not drinking alcohol and saying NO to things that do not align with my soul or well being. I choose to continue to do the work because the healing journey never ends. That means also sometimes leaving behind old versions of yourself. Walking away from people or things that no longer serve me or my highest good. It was really hard to make those decisions but it's just something I knew I had to do for myself.

This is all part of the growth

I am a warrior.

I am resilient.

I now I Am ready for a a new chapter

Im tired of self limiting beliefs.

I know I have always been my own worse enemy.

Now that I see brighter days ahead, I feel like I am stepping into a new chapter and I cannot be happier of the woman I am today. I am Constantly evolving one day at a time. Living this thing I called life as best as I can. Doing the best I can each and every day as a light worker & star seed.

I know I have a mission to fulfill on this planet and it is to share my story about how all these medicines have affected me. This is how I heal people. I do consider myself a healer but I cannot heal anyone else only myself. I only hope to spark something in others so that they may choose to embark on their own healing journey.

Here are some photos of my trip to Ecuador:

So Happy Birthday to me...

As I sit here recollecting everything I went through this year it has been quite the journey. But a beautiful one though nonetheless.I can truly look in the mirror and love the person staring back at me. It took me a long time to see her...but its all I ever needed. <3

Once again, I only hope to only inspire others. This life is too precious to not take care of ourselves and our bodies. As I grow older it is so important to watch your personal health by going to the doctor when you are feeling sick or ill. To stay updated with whats going on in your body when something does not feel right. And I always want to remind people not to judge others because we are all fighting battles you may not even know about wether they be mental or physical or both.

If you are curious to know more about ayahuasca or kambo feel free to reach out to me personally. There is an upcoming retreat coming in February 2024 in Ecuador if you are willing to dive deep to do the medicine. And If you want to do kambo I am open to clients currently. You can find more info Here